I dont think I have ever been so impacted by a message as I have been by this message by Steven Furtick.
God has my attention.
"No my Lord, don't mislead your servant, O Man of God." 2 Kings 4:16
This is the story in the Bible of a woman who had specifically longed for the promise of a child over years and years and never saw it come to pass. Disappointment after disappointment had taught her to live with and settle for a lesser and acceptable "good enough" life. However, this is not what God intended for her. Elisha told her that she would have a child in a year's time and the scripture above is her response. "Don't mislead your servant." Or..."I'm good, really, I'm good." ......A rejection of the promise of a child from the Lord for fear of another rejection.
How often I have felt this way! Not just in the arena of longing for children and not wanting to experience another rejection, but in other areas of my life and ministry many times over! How often do we miss what God is trying to bless us with because we have settled to live a safer, "good enough" life?
That's a big thought.
And then, as if this woman has not gone through enough already, a year later she HAS the baby and then the baby DIES shortly after that! The very blessing that God gave her, dies!
If ANYONE had the right to be angry, mad, depressed, and plan a funeral, she would.
But here is the remarkable part. That woman doesn't quit. She had a taste for the goodness of God when she experienced the birth of her son. She had seen His Glory and when God changes your heart and you really SEE God for WHO HE IS, you are never, ever the same. She doesn't plan a funeral and doesn't give up. She refuses to settle for "good enough" ever again. Instead she expects a miracle and goes and gets it. She might not have known what exactly to do, or what it would look like, and she probably looked absolutely crazy to others. But she KNEW that God had only goodness stored up for her and knew what had been promised to her and went and got it.
I want that.
I HAVE seen His Goodness, His Glory, over and over and He IS Faithful. This is my resolve.
I am expecting a miracle....in this adoption and in other areas of my life and family too.
No matter what happens, my trust is FULLY in the King of Kings. When I am sad and weary of waiting for this adoption, or other hurts of life, like the woman with Elisha, I can bring my broken and DEAD baby (dreams) to Him in full confidence, expecting a miracle. For only He can breathe new life into them.
This week, my eyes are opening wider than ever before, not necessarily to see what is happening all around me or even in this adoption process. But my eyes are opening to seeing the condition of my own heart. I have to expect the miracle in my own heart, rather than plan for a funeral encase it never happens.
It really IS all about the journey. The journey to become GREATER, as Steven Furtick writes in his new book, is less about a destination, and more about "the call to walk with God Himself."
Lord, let it be so! Selah.
(I encourage you to watch that message! It will be worth your 60 minutes!)